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Subject:Excited
Time:12:49 am
Current Mood:energetic
Getting excited about life again. I have an interview in the morning at 10am. The manager sounded like she really wants to hire me but has to go through the process of doing the interview. Its guaranteed 40 hrs which much better than the bullshit that DQ has been doing. Ive gone off the anxiety meds..and been doing great until I have to go to work. And soon as I head in I get a headache, dizziness, chest tightens, heart starts beating faster and I feel shaky inside. Soon ill get to tell them to go f themselves.

Will be starting college in January. Cant wait to get going on that. Slacked off too many years.

Started the Vi body challenge. Sure I want to lose weight but mostly its about eating better and feeling better. And I only have til June to get in good shape as I'll be going to see my best friend in London! WOOT!

This next year is going to be great!
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Subject:Starting A Healthstyle
Time:12:44 am
Current Mood:hopefulhopeful
I've just started my Vi Challenge and I'm feeling great. I'll be sharing my progress and welcome anyone else to join my group Healthstyle. I've started the ViSalus challenge, go here for more info or msg me: unidagger.myvi.net .6 months ago I was put in the hospital with high blood pressure, they said I was near to a stroke. I was put on 2 blood pressure meds. They also put me on an anxiety med (plus various antibiotics because I also had pneumonia and asthma).The side effects were awful...I was dizzy for hours at a time on a daily basis. It took about 3 months for most of that to subside but with the anxiety meds my sleep had been awful and i felt like my brain was no longer connected. I had no energy to do anything. If I wasnt at work, I was on the couch. I didnt even have the energy to call anyone on the phone.My friend introduced me to ViSalus and tried the shake. It was awesome. Very filling and tasted great. The best thing was that it took only a couple minutes to blend which was really more energy than I had to spare. Then He gave a box of the Neuro Boost and Pro Energy and told me to mix them in a bottle of water, chill it and enjoy. I did and OMG!! I felt like I could think again.The second day I woke at 9am. dragged myself to the kitchen and got my bottle of Neuro and Pro and drank it. I was out of the house by 10am, did errands, visited 3 friends, played with my one friends' kids, then didnt get home until after midnight. I felt great. I felt alive.These products work and the ViSalus has more protein than their competitors and are much less expensive. You can become a promoter like I have, or not. Your choice. Its all about you and what you need/want .Many start the program to lose weight, but a lot use it to gain, gain lean muscle or just add more nutrition into their diet.Ive even been able to start walking again. I have the energy. Tho Im not at this point able to go for too long. I also have a bulging disc and a couple other issues but I do what i can. It does help to go to the chiropractor which hopefully Ill be able to do soon. Exercise is another important part of any Healthstyle and I do enjoy it if I can do so without pain. (And Im not talking muscle pain).So join me in getting healthier. Lets feel great and live! Thats my main goal and losing the weight will allow me to enjoy the things i've not been able to do in a long time.Contact me if you'd like to know more about ViSalus or check out www.unidagger.myvi.net
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Subject:Forgot all about livejournal
Time:06:09 pm
Current Mood:hopefulhopeful
So yeah, Ive never been so great at keeping a diary or journal. Forgot all about this site. CJ just mentioned it over xmas and then I promptly forgot about it again until I got a reply to an old post. (I know, they are all old posts.) So why I am posting now....dont know. Not much has changed. Still in frickin' dublin tx and still at crap job which is quite depressing however...oddly...i actually feel.....dare i say....hopeful? about this new year. Yeah, maybe its 'hope'. Theres def a shift happening inside me and I think things outwardly (ie job, relationship..life...) will take a turn for the better. That or Im quite good at kidding myself. lol.
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Current Music:Mika Grace Kelley
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Subject:Moving on up...or at least out
Time:08:11 pm
Current Mood:tiredtired
Ok. Ive got some things packed. Dont really own alot but still its a chore I'd rather not be doing. Im ready to be out of here though. Stephenville evidently sucks for office jobs. Too much competition and too many students and others willing to accept crap pay. But I knew that when I returned to Texas.

Texas jobs ALWAYS suck ass.

But I came back to be able to reconnect with my family and spend time with my nephews. I dont regret that. I love my boys. I love my neice too, but they still live in Montana so I dont see them as often.

So things happen for a reason right? Sure what like to know the reasons but whatever. Lost my job back in February. Dont much care other than the fact that it sucks not having money and being able to pay things like rent. I ran out of Unemp several weeks ago. Never missed rent but a few days of missing this one she's all up my ass.

I'd started babysitting for my neighbor and became friends. So now it's worked out to where I will be a nanny for her kids. She's studying to get her CDL and already has a job lined up. Just needs the license.

I've finally started chatting with folks online again. Making a few friends. Will be going to meet one of them in Dallas at the end of the month and going to a PaganPride. Should be lots of fun and Im looking forward to meeting her.

I've also been able to reclaim the last of my soul. I feel free now. I know..Im slow. But I've Sstarted writing again. It feels good and yet Im apathetic at times. Im glad I actually feel the desire to write again though. Thats a big start. Ive just got to get focused now. Once moved I think I can do that. I wont be stressing and making myself sick worrying about rent and food.

Ive been checking stuff online and Im going to try and write some articles and short stories as well. I've only got til Dec to get a short story done. Seems all I can think about is my current story and Im quite certain I dont want it to be a short story.

Guess it will be interesting to see how my Muse reacts and what she comes up with. Im slowly reconnecting with her too. It's like we were ripped apart and now we're staring at each like strangers. Only we're not. Or are we? I suppose thats a part of me that has had to change too.

I know I can write. I know I can get something published some day. But I cant keep saying "someday" or Ill never get it done. End of the year I WILL have submitted something.

Oh and Im also intending to return to school in the Spring for Social Work. I still think I want to go more into Psychotherapy but will see.
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Subject:and the answer is
Time:08:44 am
Current Mood:crazycrazy




Take the Role-Playing Stereotype quiz.





Take the Villain quiz.






Take the What Type of Friend Are You? quiz.





What type of Fae are you?
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Time:02:31 am
Current Mood:lethargiclethargic
Don't cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Should I let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
[Call Me When You're Sober lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late

So don't cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it 'cause it's over - It's over

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I? you were never mine

So don't cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind

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Subject:still love this song too
Time:02:28 am

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Current Music:Mika
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Subject:I just really love Mika
Time:02:14 am
Current Mood:chipperchipper
Something about his music...its so fun to listen to. I cant get enough of this song.

lyrics to Grace Kelly

i want to talk to you
(the last time we talked mr smith you reduced me to tears i promise you it wont happen again)
do i attract you?
do i repulse you with my queasy smile?
am i too dirty?
am i too flirty?
do i like what you like? i could be wholesome
i could be loathsome
i guess im a little bit shy
why dont you like me?
why dont you like me?
without making me try?

I tried to be like grace kelly(mmm)
but all her looks were to sad(uhhh)
so i tried a little freddy(MMMM)
ive gone identity mad!!

i could be brown
i could be blue
i could be violet sky
i could be hurtful
i could be purple
i could be anything you like
gotta be green
gotta be mean
gotta be everything more
why dont you like me?
why dont you like me?
why dont you walk out the door?
(getting angry doesn't solve anything)
how can i help it?
how can i help it?
how can i help what you think?
hello my baby
hello my baby
putting my life on the brink
why dont you like me?
why dont you like me?
why dont you like yourself?
should i bend over?
should i look older?
just to be put on the shelf?

i tried to be like grace kelly(mmm)
but all her looks were to sad(uhh)
[Grace Kelly lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

so i tried a little freddie(MMMM)
iv gone identity mad!!

i could be brown
i could be blue
i could be violet sky
i could hurtful
i could be purple
i could be anything you like
gotta be green
gotta be mean
gotta be everything more

why don't you like me
why don't you like me
walk out the door!

say what you want to satisfy yourself hey!
but you only want,what everybody else says you should want, you want.

i could be brown
i could be blue
i could be violet sky
i could hurtful
i could be purple
i could be anything you like
gotta be green
gotta be mean
gotta be everything more
why don't you like me why don't you like me
walk out the door

i could be brown
i could be blue
i could be violet sky
i could hurtful
i could be purple
i could be anything you like
gotta be green
gotta be mean
gotta be everything more
why don't you like me why don't you like me
walk out the door
ooo000o0o0o0ooooahh humphrey we're leaving!
kachinga!

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Subject:Gently Blows the Dust Off Of LiveJournal
Time:01:07 am
Current Mood:hopefulhopeful
*sneeze*
Damn Dust.

Ok, so my life is an eternal act of procrastination. I've finally started writing again. Havent accomplished much and today all i got was one paragraph. But after almost 5 years I can actually feel my Muse. She lives. I cant actually hear her too well yet but I know she is there. I'm getting psyched. I want to write again. Let me repeat that. I W-A-N-T to write.

I havent felt the desire to write in years. It's been more like a memory. The buzzing of a gnat. But it is returning. I find myself ...dare I say it..dreaming...thinking....about a future.

I know.......it's about damn fucking time. lol

Tomorrow I must spend at least an hour packing. Thats my goal. One hour. Then, if the kids wil leave me be, I need to try and write. Course, they wont be leaving me be in the morning. I really should get to sleep. They'll have me up at least by 8am. Hopefully not before.

So thats the plan. Such as it is. Best laid plans of mice and men........
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Time:01:00 am
Current Mood:apatheticapathetic
You are .rpm  You have a nice package.  You can be useful, but your many variations sometimes make you tough to find.  You aren't apt to get jealous.
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